"I think I see it!!!" I exclaimed excitedly.  

I was hovering over Jordon's side of the bed.  He was still curled deep under the covers.

"Huh" he said blindly grasping for his glasses  "I don't see it"

"No you need to look in the light" I said

He rolled towards his overhead bed lamp, flipped it on, and examined the small white test more carefully.

His eyebrows raised.  "I guess I do see it.  But its barely there?"

I had been waiting for any whisper of a line for quite some time.  His lack of enthusiasm wasn't going to calm me.  

"I'm not sure that is enough to go on.  Call the doctor" he patronized and rolled back under the covers.

I decided I'd take to the one place advice was plentiful and my query was welcomed.  Oh yes.... Google.  Always trustworthy for some blatant honesties... like that friend that always tells you what you do or do not want to hear (read my sarcasm and awareness that Googling is usually reserved for wanting to induce the throngs of a 1000 nightmares... well where medical advice is concerned anyways).  

So what did I find?  Medical site after site saying any semblance of a line absolutely means you are absolutely and without a doubt pregnant.  

I messaged my friend Kristin and "snap chatted" the little whisper of a line to my friend Rachel.  Even drawing an arrow to the faint little line.  It was definitely there.  I was needing someone to back me up here.

I think they also weren't wanting to get my hopes up.  But I knew.  I'd felt strange this past week or so.  Tired and soreness in my chest.  I had felt a little dizzy here and there as well when helping Kristin move the week before.  So so tired!  I hadn't wanted to get too excited because last month I also had thought for sure it was "THE month" I'd see that line and sadly it was not.  

I wrote the OB doctor I'd been working with and she had me go in to my primary doctor for a quick HcG test that next afternoon.  A torturous wait (and another stronger lined test that am) confirmed I was not crazy.  After so much hoping and planning we were officially expecting for the first time in nearly 7 years.

I immediately set to work gathering what I needed to break the exciting news to family and friends.  I Amazon primed a shirt for me tell my mom and sister, Lana (A black t that said "eating for two" in white calligraphy).  I then bought our daughter Nieva a shirt for Thanksgiving which was just a little over a week away.  We recorded most everyone's reactions.  

And so the adventure began.....